The Five of Pentacles

It was jumping out at me yesterday...

I had my own idea of what it stood for, associations like worry, severe relentless male force existing in the force that moves material, low vibrating energy, money issues... but nothing like that website (which was the first, and only one I checked out... (might pop open a qabalistic book to see what kind of associations with ain exist.))

I feel like it's very appropriate for the situation I'm in at the moment.

And lol, using parenthesis like that makes my blog have a LISP.

I need to time bind this!

When you forget you have a personal relationship to "God" or whatever you want call the intelligence. You really FORGET. It's weird to realize, and REMEMBER, because you REALLY REMEMBER. the memories align like planets in your mind, and you remember and you forget that you've forgotten or will ever forget again (if that's even possible! see...)

How interesting.
I wish that made more sense. I wish I could put a "cheat code" that could be read in case I forget again. Silly silly.

Singularity is here! it is near!

Feeling your life parts move around is weird after being dead for so long.

A manual to live by

Each person is unique in some ways, however it has been discovered over and over again that there is a common thread between each person and their own personal religion. Take for example a modern Christian church, each person is there for a different reason, vibrating at a different level. I can only speculate from my observations (and I don't have many observations to go off of). A little girl could be there praying for a specific friend or family member, a teenage son could be contemplating their personal relationship between himself and the Lord, a biochemist finding Christ and the Lord in the scriptures as easily as he finds them in the genetic code. Each one with their own 'personal religion' brought together under the same roof, the same semantics(the meaning of a word, phrase, sentence, or text).

With my recent conversations, any disagreement boils down to a disagreement of the semantics. Books like "The Tao of Physics" (which I haven't read much of, but have got a taste) connect the semantics of eastern philosophy to modern physics.

So, in order to have a book speak to you 100% correctly it would have to be written THROUGH you, filtering down through your map of the world, your language and the associations that you make to each word. 'God' may be the best word, or maybe 'the Tao' would be more appropriate, 'Cosmic Energy', 'Siva's dance'.

Your CHILTON manual, for your specific make, model and year may exist, but it may be like be a 'colloidal read' through space-time, a living dynamic experience where you learn as you go. Bits of reality seem to "speak to you" but, remember, that's just my personal religion. Maybe a literal bible of some sort is perfect for others, I can't say.
(A colloid is a type of mixture in which one substance is dispersed evenly throughout another. Like 'signal' and 'noise')

My friend had a great example as to how we are all part of one thing but each of us has their own function in the 'grand scheme'. He said you wouldn't want your lung cell to start behaving like a brain cell, or your liver to be anything else than a liver. Each of us also has an inherent (esoteric) nature, just like a cell.

What about stem cells? I see stem cells as open minded individuals ready to take up the vibration of the surrounding cells, and basically become them, form the tissue. As humans I believe we all have a bit of 'stem cell' in us. We are susceptible to* our surrounding vibrations, to become a part of the system that is currently surrounding us. And if it doesn't jive we live in unrest, turmoil, and discomfort.
*(or can become susceptible to, if we are able to drop our current dogma.)

These negative situations seem to arise from self-deceit, 'trying to fit in', is a big one that I've seen, and experienced myself. Instead of letting yourself be taken in by peas that are of the same pod, or taking in other peas yourself, you find yourself struggling for affection and acceptance.
This is where gut feeling comes in quite handy, I DON'T believe you can rationalize what pod you're from, however, you can rationalize how being part of a different pod would be beneficial. I can see this resulting in an unhealthy, no-fun time for all parties involved.

It is tempting when another organ is giving you gold stars for behavior, and if you want to try and be assimilated, follow the gold stars and see if they lead you in a warm direction, experiment find out what works, no pressure. Your metaphysical family is waiting with open arms and wells of love!

Watched this today...

"The Meru Project has discovered an extraordinary and unexpected geometric metaphor in the letter-sequence of the Hebrew text of Genesis that underlies and is held in common by the spiritual traditions of the ancient world. This metaphor models embryonic growth and self-organization. It applies to all whole systems, including those as seemingly diverse as meditational practices and the mathematics fundamental to physics and cosmology...Meru Project findings demonstrate that the relationship between physical theory and consciousness, expressed in explicit geometric metaphor, was understood and developed several thousand years ago."

I was lead to this through my research of Shefa Tal (according to Stan Tenen, the guy speaking in the video Shefa: Flow (sort of the sense of Tao, or wave model from what I understand) and Tal: Units of information (Particle model)
Google translates it:
Shefa: Abundance, plethora
Tal: Mound, heap

So a "heaped abundance" or as Tenen seems to percieve more 4th dimensionally, the abundance is in the flow and the "notes" that make the flow is the Tal.

10 trees in one Tree

So, today I experimented with placing 10 kabbalistic trees of life into one larger Tree.
To diagram the trees I use Frater Achad's method outlined in the book: "Anatomy of the Body of God". Basically 4 larger circles are drawn on a line, with each center starting at the intersection of the circle and line, the first circle can be placed arbitrarily. This generates the distances in order to place the ten sephiroth.
Now, if we reduce our compass size to 1/4 the original radius (I did this by horizontally drawing a line through the middle of one of the 3 vesica piscis that are generated from the drawing of the original 4 circles, then placing the compass at the intersection of the horizontal line and the vertical line that the circles were drawn on. Then reduce the size of your compass' radius so the pencil is at the center of your original circle).
Now that we have our compass drawing circles 1/4 the original generating circles we can now proceed to draw another 10 sets of generating circles emanating from the original ten sephiroth. Today, I made each sephera it's own kether on the tree generating down from it, but I am sure we can experiment with placing different sepheroth on each of the sepheroth on the larger tree... perhaps each larger sephera should correspond to itself on the smaller tree? I'll report my findings on that tomorrow, or maybe later tonight.

I have been splitting the 10 trees out of the larger tree in order to make individual diagrams and labeling the overlapping sepheroth on each one.

-nak
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